Restore to me the joy of your salvation. And sustain me with a willing spirit.
My definition of happiness is when all things line up just how I think it should. The day is going just as I planned. My thoughts are happy thoughts and mentally I feel like I can conquer the world. I go to sleep and wake up and nothing happened, but the happy feeling I had yesterday is gone. So since the happy feeling is gone, I start to think on the things that went wrong two days ago, two weeks ago and even six months ago. As I reminisce on the wrong, happiness runs further away.
I then remember that I haven’t read anywhere in the Bible that happiness is what I am promised. I reflect and think about what I truly need. I came across Psalms 51:12. Joy is better than happiness. Joy doesn’t leave, but is always present through the good days and the bad. So my prayer now is, “Restore to me the joy of your salvation. And sustain me with a willing spirit. Psalms 51:12” Restore means bring back or reinstate. I remember the joy I had when I was about six and joined church and gave my life to Christ. At 6, I had no care in the world and knew that Jesus died on the cross for me. As an adult, I have all the cares of being a wife, a mother, a daughter, a niece, cousin and a friend. Each role is important and carry some sort of responsibility. But what I want is the joy of my salvation reinstated. With that joy, it won’t matter what happens because I know Jesus died for me and wants me to count it all joy in whatever situation I am in. Happiness is a fleeting emotion that will come and go, but joy will be present when life is going as I want it or if nothing is falling into place as I thought it should. In Psalms 51:12, I also see the words “..And sustain me with a willing spirit.” How many times is it our spirits are not willing because thats not how I planned it or I am just sick and tired of being sick and tired. At that point, our spirit has become irrelevant due to our own negative emotions and not seeing the other side. Sustain means to strengthen or support. So I want my joy restored and God to strengthen my WILLING spirit. To grow in Christ I know my spirit needs to be strengthened and supported to make it through each day. As I dig deeper to have my joy restored and my willing spirit strengthened , I know God will allow challenges to come, but my joy and my willing spirt will overcome each challenge and I will come out stronger and wiser.